I want to die without you

I just learned to breathe again, now I'm suffocating. And the mistake was to breathe through your lips and trying not to die until you could fill my lungs with air

Tease me all you want, but only if you can handle me when I'm angry. And you know pretty damn good, the only way to handle me when I'm angry is shutting my mouth with your lips.

My shirt smells like you. Now we're angry, calling each other names. I'm trying so hard to hate you, but I find myself trying to catch your scent over and over again.

When you lean your head back and close your eyes, mouth a bit open and I can read in your face how much you like what I do,
When your lips form the words I'm afraid of and love to hear but not a single noise is coming out of your throat,
When you touch my skin and reach for me to say these words out loud, knowing I won't say it back,
When I see you thirsting for my lips and suffocating without my tongue,
When you open your eyes searching for mine and their impression fades to regret while realizing what you've done
When you killed the second that lasted forever
That's when I loved you most

Not yours, never will be yours again

Everytime I get drunk I love you more and more
Everytime you get drunk you forget me more and more